A Big Bang of some contradictions of myself

• When you promise, you will swallow your words.
• I start as a Lion, but end as a Chicken.
• I tell myself "I will never do it", but I do it; "I wish I never do it", but I do it; If I say "I want it", then it goes away
• The thing I want the most, is the hardest thing for me to achieve or decide
• Some problems and promises will accumulate, until one day, they all explode altogether
• Even if you don't have problems, MANY PEOPLE are making plans with your money. MANY.
• It seems ALL PROBLEMS are resolved with a SACRIFICE that doesn't assure anything. The problem is only interchanged by another problem that is not less bigger, and sometimes with a doubtful profit.
  
• Then, unconsciously, my psyche tends to forget this sentimental intensity of big depression and start injecting enjoyment in me, instead of keeping me there to analyze it.
• People always like that we guess whatever they want. It seems SURPRISE and LIES are needed in this !"#$%&/ Universe.
• Many times, I can't apply my conclusions to myself!!
• "Luck Vs. Fate" is so hard to handle sometimes, hard to keep in equilibrium.
• What I must do is so hard... and what I want to do is so enjoyable...