Talk #7: Pessimism. Out there..

Started: 2011-02-08 06:23:58

- Motivation. E+motion. Fear. And I'm still the same $#!%.
- Remember which attitude made you into your first job in the area you wanted to work.
- And at which age too!
- You still have time
- I'll lose too much time learning, and I'll arrive to the same point.
- You'll arrive there only if you want to. Besides, what could be the opposite side of that point of view?
- I had the same contradictions while making choices. You made me the same question to my anger against the "Eternal Optimism:" Optimism while things go bad, Pessimism while things go bad too, or well-being ignored when things go good?
- No matter the age. If there's still life, then there's still chance. You make it look that you are pessimist on bad situations. People feel you that way, unconsciously.
- Pessimist on bad situations ... (06:41:07) ... People tend to see the glass half-full, to look for Hidden Opportunities inside adversities.
- Yeah. And Work is needed to find them.
- And still, we are revolving into my first problem: Am I losing my time?
- In which way would you like to lose you time: either doing something or doing nothing?
- Either Open Source or Proprietary Software?
- Either making money or not!
- But little money
- It's a lot better than nothing at all. Compare it to the probability of the Universe coming into existence all alone by itself, or to the quote "A little learning is a dangerous thing, but we must take that risk because a little is as much as our biggest heads can hold" (George Bernard Shaw)
- Are we talking about Possibility, Probability, Knowledge, or Money?
- It's a metaphor. Take it or leave it ... (07:06:48) ... Again: There's more possibility out there, than inside here. Do you remember that?
- Oh yes! Thanks!

Ended: 2011-02-08 07:25:23

Idea of a Web of Ideas

I was contemplating my sms_list, while I got the idea of a web of ideas. In this web, ideas can be compared and analyzed using synonyms and similar words, to make it easier either acceptance or rejection by applying the rule of the majority.

While I was thinking about that web, I took an example of somebody promoting the idea of 100% Perfect. but instead, I promote 99.99%. I imagined a situation on which a person says that my 99.99% idea is wrong, and that person let me try to explain it, and I choose an example of a wake.

I was trying to continue that story in that previous linear form, but I decided to transform it into a dialog. And so, I did this:

- Your idea is wrong. I can get the 100% of my plan.
- No plan is 100% Perfect.
- Ok. Explain it better.
- I will put an example. Imagine that you are in a wake. Take the opportunity to say some words in that wake and say 'I love God'
- I won't do it because you say it. I'm not your pawn.
- O.K., don't do it. Don't say that you love God. Even in that moment, you will hide your love for Him.
- Why don't you tell it instead?
- Because I don't feel it nice. Also, I'm no the one promoting the 100%
- What does it have to do with 100%?
- Somebody will give you a suggestion which is in concordance with the plan, but because it was exactly that person (me in this case) you will show, bring or find any kinds of blockade, errors and mistakes. You will dismiss the possibility that person shows, and so, that 0.01%.
- Well, to say 'I Love God' in that moment is not completely necessary.
- And there goes that 0.01% away... Also, while you execute your plan, alternatives appear...

It was a nice thought, but this sequence in my head impressed me so much, that I decided to plaster it here.

Talk #6: Get a Stone and Cold Heart

- She is not the type of woman that will make you feel proud of her. She looks like a whore.
- What about my ex?
- She is, but she does not decide like she should. Maybe you were not enough for her.
- Why didn't I see it this morning, after my REM-Sleep neural reassignment? What I sought was total garbage of feelings until a friend of mine showed his passion because he will his girl today.
- Stop it! Think about Stone and Cold Heart, man!

Talk #5: Revelation of having a weak heart

- All these texts should help me to improve my abilities related to my economy, not on my sentimental part. For example, they should help me to improve my abilities of Design-Code-Test and Maintain-Extend-Reuse
- You big and nasty bastard!! I help in your "sentimental part" because your heart is very weak and soft. Remember Chandra Suresh: "Stone And Cold Heart". There is no success without sacrifice. Then, the question is: What kind of success do you want to achieve, and what kind of Sacrifice, Suffering and Sadness are you willing to stand for it

Losing

- I fear to have to destroy whatever I have done.
- It is better do something small or little, than to do nothing
- What about being ridiculed?
- It depends on what is really on bet: whatever it is, you will lose.

Talk #4: Structure or Resolution?

- Women, chess, programming, KOF, ...
- You should try to pull what you don't need from your mind.
- I don't see what solution will it give me if I forget majority of them.
- You need to make room or space in your mind for new things.
- The only thing I see is free space, no new solution or technique.
- If memory is full, where will you put a new program?
- I can't control how to erase information from my mind?
- Like computers, you don't control erasure mechanics, but you know the command!
- LOL, that's a good one! Anyway, I can't see which is the program that will answer my questions.
- Simple. Use all known efective techniques until...
- A problem arises again. urgh. Then what?
- Investigate a little more.
- What if I can't find anything?
- Then you should analyze the problem some more.
- What if I don't have enough time to analyze?
- Do it as you can.
- Then restart all cycle of investigate, analyze, execute.
- !@#$%^&*, Restart the cycle? Didn't you understand that I need to solve my problem, in shortest time possible, and in the best way possible?
- Then, what do you really want? Something perfect, or to solve a problem? Improvements appears with more probability from everything that is done, not from things that are or live inside one's head.
- Nice! Another good one! ... A thought passed across my mind: Has she been awake as I was?
- Oh god! Now you are thinking in women again! What about that problem structure you were talking about? About that woman I will say only this: you need to investigate.
- I don't know if I should laugh, or cry about what you said.
- ...

Talk #3: Recursive Tree

- Stick to what works!!
- But that alternative takes too much resources!!
- For that kind of thoughts is why you don't have anything.
- What about that big amount of recurrent steps?
- Those steps are not too big and not too much?
- So, it means I have lost my time...
- Yes

Talk #2: Reward System Needed

God should elaborate more this system if He wants us to follow a certain path. Things like seeing auras, telepathy, etc. Because things we don't have (ie, limited power), we try to find them by any means: witchcraft, weeds, etc.

I think levels and measures of prizes for success should be established.

Ok. I know it can't be easy, but I think these sacrifies should be well elaborated for some of us to be willing to do them. Also, I know that Your message is spread in this world, but I think this message could be misinformed to some extend.

- Those are abilities you have inside you.
- But are constrained. I want help about them.
- But you can misuse them.
- Then, that is why I beg for a well-defined reward system, (why you want it?) so I can know when I am right or wrong, (but you know that) and recieving feedbacks as soon as possible, (there are easy and hard test) and to choose the right path, although I know that I have many needs, desires, wishes, temptations.

Talk #1: Doubts and Tests.

I was reading one of those forwarded emails about miracles that God make into the lifes of some people. I was complaining about not being able to witness that Power of God in some way, and then, a kind of talk I am going to baptize as "Talks with my Higher Self" was originated...

This is not the first time I have got these types of talks. Normally, I start them in spanish. So, this is my translations of my writings.

Prepare yourself to witness a kind of "Solo talking". This is the first longest entry of this blog.

Warning: sometimes I feel I am talking with God, but I can't prove if He is the one who is aswering my questions. To keep the same feeling, these talks will be kept the same way. Please forgive me if this bothers you.


- Do you have any doubts about My Power?
- I don't have doubts about it, instead I would want more people be aware of Your Presence and Power, and so, they believe and be conscious about that there is something more Powerful that the things people can see.
- Why do you feel that way?
- I feel angry about being not able to prove Your Power. You complain about humans being obssesed with touching, seeing and feeling. So, I want an explatation: What is the point of creating Material Reality, if we can't materially believe in something? Could it be that we should not believe in anything? Not even in You?
- Nothing can make me sure that you will choose the right path, even after I give you the physical prove that you wish too much. So, Why should I give that evidence, anyway?
- I have to have faith. Ok. What about You? Can't You have Faith in me? I know I will stumble many times. But you know I am conscious You see what I do...
- Then Forward that email!!! What stops you from forwarding it is the same thing that stops you from being a workaholic: Doubt and possibility of people ignoring what you did. Remember: although many important people for you ignore it, it will always exist somebody that is paying attention to you, and normally, you don't know who that person is.
- Then, what should I do about that person?
- Start preparing the quickest way to make that person know all the good things you have learned about life, and get it ready when the physical contact happens.
- Ok. Some of the things could be:
a) God exists, and He likes when we talk a lot with him. ;-)
b) Live you life as you are giving an example to people.
c) The conflict between Materiality and Spirituality...
- Great! But don't forget to tell them that God gives you signals and test for both, to test your Faith, and for you to test yourself of what you are capable of.
- When I think about things like this, I get shivers in my body. As I can't explain them, I like to think that God is caressing me... the same way I would caress a pet... I have failed many times to many people, and maybe I will fail a lot more in the future.
- But everything is not lost yet. Keep building your way and being aware of all the things you know. ;-)


You could think this is paranoic, but this is what I feel. And also, If you think that way, that same paranoia said me to show you another entry of me: When "worlds colide", philosophy is born