There always will be something in your life that you really wish, but your actual situation won't allow you to easily get it. It is like being nude and not being able to find any clothes to put on.
Why are things that way? Well, that is a constant feature of self-evolution or self-perfection: Everybody wants to improve their current situation, or some aspects of it. And, if you see it from this point of view, it is not surprising to notice your bad luck when looking for a job. In fact, you will always want to improve your situation in every moment of your life.
And there is where problems appear, because as Anthony Robbins said: "The meeting of preparation with opportunity generates the offspring we call luck." (I heard something similar while taking classes in O&M university) Your amount of luck depends on your own abilities and offers that could appear.
This is both funny and sad: to depend on needs or wastes of others... :-|
domingo, 8 de noviembre de 2009
Destiny is like Bedazzled movie
You didn't remove my fear of torture, but you did remove my fear of failure; no to women obsession, but yes to success... Is my life like the devil's contract in Bedazzled movie?
In these particular movie, no matter what the main characted wished and begged to the devil, his wish will always, always have a drawback, a defect, a fault, a shortcoming.
I always try harder to get what I don't have right now. Nevertheless, I am noticing that I have good things right now, but I want something I don't have. Am I crazy because of that?
What is really sad is that it seems we have some good qualities but we neither notice them, nor know how to make the most of them. Most of the time, we keep asking ourselves "Why can't I do/have it?" In my case, it is urgent to find a way out of this... vice?!
In these particular movie, no matter what the main characted wished and begged to the devil, his wish will always, always have a drawback, a defect, a fault, a shortcoming.
I always try harder to get what I don't have right now. Nevertheless, I am noticing that I have good things right now, but I want something I don't have. Am I crazy because of that?
What is really sad is that it seems we have some good qualities but we neither notice them, nor know how to make the most of them. Most of the time, we keep asking ourselves "Why can't I do/have it?" In my case, it is urgent to find a way out of this... vice?!
When offended: Nah, it was nothing!
Boredom, sorrow, shame, ... Ok. Feelings are alerts of things I should take account on? Feelings are like a US$300 prostitute who motivates you to do "something": a nice bait to make waste your life and resources.
It is nice to think that goal of life is to learn how to control those impulsive feelings. To think that this life is a test place to measure our "integrity", but what a test! We have temptations everywhere, from our beds to our friends, from our jobs to our parties,... temptations to show off our bad feelings are daily and constantly present.
We really feel good when we unleash those feelings. It is well known that, after putting it out, all that remains is emptiness, but why on earth is that emptiness so difficult to remember when we are angry or offended? Even if we try to say "Nah, it was nothing!", deep in our heart, we are begging and wishing for a revenge... well, Saint Bible says that evil will be punished...
That irony is a !@#$%^&* joke! :-&
It is nice to think that goal of life is to learn how to control those impulsive feelings. To think that this life is a test place to measure our "integrity", but what a test! We have temptations everywhere, from our beds to our friends, from our jobs to our parties,... temptations to show off our bad feelings are daily and constantly present.
We really feel good when we unleash those feelings. It is well known that, after putting it out, all that remains is emptiness, but why on earth is that emptiness so difficult to remember when we are angry or offended? Even if we try to say "Nah, it was nothing!", deep in our heart, we are begging and wishing for a revenge... well, Saint Bible says that evil will be punished...
That irony is a !@#$%^&* joke! :-&
Bad feelings disturbs
I think God has the same sentimental questions as we have, because I don't know why some unpleasant feelings exist.
Think about it. Why do hate, anger, laziness, greed, lust, envy, etc. exist? Of course you can learn something from those feelings, but the only good point I see about them is how they force you to do unthinkable things, like responding a physical attack or sending everybody to hell.
As all the other great feelings, they have the same problem. That problem is the fact that they mist our perception of things and make difficult to see alternatives clearly. The more intense the feeling, the same amount of blindness. Even sadness, which I think is a feeling that keeps my mind at full sight, have made me to ignore good alternatives.
What I hate about feelings like hate is that sometimes appears something I hate, and when that hate is big, ideas can't enter in my mind.
If feelings are alerts, then why on earth they are so attach to motives of things we do everyday to the point that they even seem necessary? I am starting to think that is impossible to do anything without a feeling...
Think about it. Why do hate, anger, laziness, greed, lust, envy, etc. exist? Of course you can learn something from those feelings, but the only good point I see about them is how they force you to do unthinkable things, like responding a physical attack or sending everybody to hell.
As all the other great feelings, they have the same problem. That problem is the fact that they mist our perception of things and make difficult to see alternatives clearly. The more intense the feeling, the same amount of blindness. Even sadness, which I think is a feeling that keeps my mind at full sight, have made me to ignore good alternatives.
What I hate about feelings like hate is that sometimes appears something I hate, and when that hate is big, ideas can't enter in my mind.
If feelings are alerts, then why on earth they are so attach to motives of things we do everyday to the point that they even seem necessary? I am starting to think that is impossible to do anything without a feeling...
I want to auto-program myself
I am so miserable that even I can't auto-program myself to think in work only. Discouragement always appears because of work amount or delivery date (dead line).
I try harder everyday in order to focus in job only, but it seems it so difficult to achieve. What I exactly want is to be able to ignore big amounts of work to the point to look like an idiot, not only by appearance, but also by commitment and results.
It should be really useful to auto-program ourselves in only having eyes for what we want. It is so easy with love. Could we become in love of everything? Even love things that we actually don't like very much? Sure, it is possible, but it isn't easy.
I think it is the same analogy as achieving great muscles: don't expect them to come in less than three months.
I try harder everyday in order to focus in job only, but it seems it so difficult to achieve. What I exactly want is to be able to ignore big amounts of work to the point to look like an idiot, not only by appearance, but also by commitment and results.
It should be really useful to auto-program ourselves in only having eyes for what we want. It is so easy with love. Could we become in love of everything? Even love things that we actually don't like very much? Sure, it is possible, but it isn't easy.
I think it is the same analogy as achieving great muscles: don't expect them to come in less than three months.
Talk #4: Structure or Resolution?
- Women, chess, programming, KOF, ...
- You should try to pull what you don't need from your mind.
- I don't see what solution will it give me if I forget majority of them.
- You need to make room or space in your mind for new things.
- The only thing I see is free space, no new solution or technique.
- If memory is full, where will you put a new program?
- I can't control how to erase information from my mind?
- Like computers, you don't control erasure mechanics, but you know the command!
- LOL, that's a good one! Anyway, I can't see which is the program that will answer my questions.
- Simple. Use all known efective techniques until...
- A problem arises again. urgh. Then what?
- Investigate a little more.
- What if I can't find anything?
- Then you should analyze the problem some more.
- What if I don't have enough time to analyze?
- Do it as you can.
- Then restart all cycle of investigate, analyze, execute.
- !@#$%^&*, Restart the cycle? Didn't you understand that I need to solve my problem, in shortest time possible, and in the best way possible?
- Then, what do you really want? Something perfect, or to solve a problem? Improvements appears with more probability from everything that is done, not from things that are or live inside one's head.
- Nice! Another good one! ... A thought passed across my mind: Has she been awake as I was?
- Oh god! Now you are thinking in women again! What about that problem structure you were talking about? About that woman I will say only this: you need to investigate.
- I don't know if I should laugh, or cry about what you said.
- ...
- You should try to pull what you don't need from your mind.
- I don't see what solution will it give me if I forget majority of them.
- You need to make room or space in your mind for new things.
- The only thing I see is free space, no new solution or technique.
- If memory is full, where will you put a new program?
- I can't control how to erase information from my mind?
- Like computers, you don't control erasure mechanics, but you know the command!
- LOL, that's a good one! Anyway, I can't see which is the program that will answer my questions.
- Simple. Use all known efective techniques until...
- A problem arises again. urgh. Then what?
- Investigate a little more.
- What if I can't find anything?
- Then you should analyze the problem some more.
- What if I don't have enough time to analyze?
- Do it as you can.
- Then restart all cycle of investigate, analyze, execute.
- !@#$%^&*, Restart the cycle? Didn't you understand that I need to solve my problem, in shortest time possible, and in the best way possible?
- Then, what do you really want? Something perfect, or to solve a problem? Improvements appears with more probability from everything that is done, not from things that are or live inside one's head.
- Nice! Another good one! ... A thought passed across my mind: Has she been awake as I was?
- Oh god! Now you are thinking in women again! What about that problem structure you were talking about? About that woman I will say only this: you need to investigate.
- I don't know if I should laugh, or cry about what you said.
- ...
viernes, 6 de noviembre de 2009
Overcoming addictions? Excitement!
Berserk Manga
Demon Dogs. Chapter 75, Page 21
(Check it in MangaShare)
"This is my motto: Enjoyment and Excitement!!"
Although the context in which I presented this phrase is not the most appealing, (...) this was the first time I saw a character who expresses his motto in this way.
The reason why I brought this phrase it is because Enjoyment and Excitement are the best ways to overcome any addiction you have. Think about it: those sensations are what you feel when you are doing your addictions. This is what all addictions have in common.
So, the panacea is to find a useful vice. A vice big enough to give you too much enjoyment and excitement, equal or more than the other vice you want to leave.
Demon Dogs. Chapter 75, Page 21
(Check it in MangaShare)
"This is my motto: Enjoyment and Excitement!!"
Although the context in which I presented this phrase is not the most appealing, (...) this was the first time I saw a character who expresses his motto in this way.
The reason why I brought this phrase it is because Enjoyment and Excitement are the best ways to overcome any addiction you have. Think about it: those sensations are what you feel when you are doing your addictions. This is what all addictions have in common.
So, the panacea is to find a useful vice. A vice big enough to give you too much enjoyment and excitement, equal or more than the other vice you want to leave.
jueves, 5 de noviembre de 2009
Improve after, not before!!
In programming, you try to make a good code, even before writing anything! Although this is good, it normally takes time and effort you could be using in the implementation of that ugly alternative you presented or imagined the first time you thought about a problem.
If you can do something useful in your life, try to start doing it as soon as possible, and then, if what you did needs some improvements, they will be wittily apparent.
But then again, you will be tempted to think in a better way to make those improvements. Remember: do something, then improve later.
In order to save time and effort, improve after you do anything. Sometimes improvements are not really needed.
This seems recursive: To improve, do. To do, improve.
If you can do something useful in your life, try to start doing it as soon as possible, and then, if what you did needs some improvements, they will be wittily apparent.
But then again, you will be tempted to think in a better way to make those improvements. Remember: do something, then improve later.
In order to save time and effort, improve after you do anything. Sometimes improvements are not really needed.
This seems recursive: To improve, do. To do, improve.
martes, 3 de noviembre de 2009
Bad things about women (Note)
Note: Don't get me wrong: women are the best complementation to a man, and viceversa. With a woman, we are so powerful, that we can create life naturally. To caress, hug and kiss a woman is the most pleasant activity that might exist the life of a man... nevertheless, as a programmer that I am, I feel sad when I need to solve a problem, but solution can't enter in my mind because that mind is entirely occupied by a beautiful image of a woman.
I have grouped three bad things about women:
Money: women love to feel good. You can say nice things, kiss, hug and caress them. You can even have a walk with them, maybe something more... the point is, at any point of a relation you should make "gifts", or to spend something to visit places like cinemas, amusement parks, or else. Most common way to spend money is via phone calls. I don't know how often this point arrive in a relation, but I can tell that either she or you will feel sad if you can't make some of her dreams come true.
Time: friends, jobs and extra work, learning, studying or practicing something, or simply a time to breath. If, for some reason, any of these moments collides with the need to be with you that your woman could have, she will begin thinking things like: "You don't give me any time", "You don't love me" or "You have another girl". At this point, it is probably that you use your so needed time and give it to her. It's sad.
Mind: have you and your girl ever been disgusted? Have you tried to do a little work with your mind in that state? Oh God! It's so difficult to get good results when your mind is totally occupied by a woman. No matter if you are delight or worried, a woman in your mind CAN remove your focus from where you need it to be.
These three excuses could be used as a source of motivation also, but in my case, when I think in a woman, the only thing I wish to do in that moment is to be with her, even I have important duties pending.
What to do?
I have grouped three bad things about women:
Money: women love to feel good. You can say nice things, kiss, hug and caress them. You can even have a walk with them, maybe something more... the point is, at any point of a relation you should make "gifts", or to spend something to visit places like cinemas, amusement parks, or else. Most common way to spend money is via phone calls. I don't know how often this point arrive in a relation, but I can tell that either she or you will feel sad if you can't make some of her dreams come true.
Time: friends, jobs and extra work, learning, studying or practicing something, or simply a time to breath. If, for some reason, any of these moments collides with the need to be with you that your woman could have, she will begin thinking things like: "You don't give me any time", "You don't love me" or "You have another girl". At this point, it is probably that you use your so needed time and give it to her. It's sad.
Mind: have you and your girl ever been disgusted? Have you tried to do a little work with your mind in that state? Oh God! It's so difficult to get good results when your mind is totally occupied by a woman. No matter if you are delight or worried, a woman in your mind CAN remove your focus from where you need it to be.
These three excuses could be used as a source of motivation also, but in my case, when I think in a woman, the only thing I wish to do in that moment is to be with her, even I have important duties pending.
What to do?
Victim or aggressor?
From time to time, we become victim or aggressor of any kind of act that we hate too much.
About smashing people's happiness.
About telling people's secrets.
About doing what we said we hate.
About doing what we said we will never do in our lives.
Even if it is somewhat a mechanism of defense, a way of punishment, a consecuence from our acts, or else, one way or another, we end asking ourselves if what we are doing is good or have any worth.
Oh God! Is this the only way? Is this an universal truth? Have you felt that way in the beginning of everything You (and/or we) have done? Scriptures says "Don't kill", but in those same Scriptures there have been several murders at great scale in Your Name.
Do we need to live and cope with that double moral everytime? Well, my (temporal) conclusion about this topic is similar to another one I extracted from a special chapter I read from a C++ pdf: "Analyze all good things you can do if you act that way, and use it to sugar-coat all those prejudices."
About smashing people's happiness.
About telling people's secrets.
About doing what we said we hate.
About doing what we said we will never do in our lives.
Even if it is somewhat a mechanism of defense, a way of punishment, a consecuence from our acts, or else, one way or another, we end asking ourselves if what we are doing is good or have any worth.
Oh God! Is this the only way? Is this an universal truth? Have you felt that way in the beginning of everything You (and/or we) have done? Scriptures says "Don't kill", but in those same Scriptures there have been several murders at great scale in Your Name.
Do we need to live and cope with that double moral everytime? Well, my (temporal) conclusion about this topic is similar to another one I extracted from a special chapter I read from a C++ pdf: "Analyze all good things you can do if you act that way, and use it to sugar-coat all those prejudices."
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